alkem

i still have your underwear on
like a curse on my body
i reached a hand inside
and felt the empty cavern
i couldn't wait 
to sink into you
and into the earth that the snake that eats itself coils around
and squeezes like the neck of a bottle
to drink what's inside

i can't listen to these songs anymore
i'm cheating myself
i see them standing in the corner of your room
waiting in the doorway
holding your head
and looking me in the eye
something realer than real
something that i can't understand
something that i haven't seen before
they fade into the background
switching places
two dimensional
too quiet to understand
standing in the corner of your room